My Dear Friend :(

My Dear Friend,

I miss you. We all miss you and we always do.

When they telling me about the shocking news yesterday, oh yes, it is quite quite hard for me to accept it.

Speechless and numb.

I`d been planning to visit you this week but then, its too late now. I am sorry friend and I feel regret for not visiting you the past months. God, how I feel the difference now. 

And how now I know the feeling of missing a friend. A truly and sincere feeling and I am regret because you`re not there anymore. 

There are no hopes and plans anymore. No more news, no more you.

Dear friend,

I`d cried so much yesterday. Silly me for not coming to see you before. I never ever thought this might happened. Never once. I thought that you will be back to normal just like the old days. Everyday, we all hope for the same thing and never ever expect these will happened. All the times that we had together, all the photos, all the laughter and the cries, remember? Oh God, how we miss you.

I know its hard for all of us to accept this. But I don`t want you to be sad thinking about our lost and that is what we try to cope with. We love you friend and will always do. God loves you more than we do and may you rest in peace. Al - Fatihah.

Rest in peace, Siti Maryam.

11/10/1990 - 22/06/2011

Nora Elena @ Kasih Yang Suci

The name reflects a beautiful meaning, isn`t it? So, for those who currently watch this Tv drama series, just let you know that I am the number one fan of this series!  Well, first of all it is because of my charming one, Aaron Aziz and the second thing, it is because of the story itself. Just so you know, the story is the adaptation from a novel, Kasih Yang Suci and of course, it is a number one hit now. And yeah, only when I`m back home is the best way to watch Tv in a more proper and managable way, comparing to Shah Alam. This is due to no TV, specifically no broadcast at all. Pity me. But still, thanks to my mom and sister for dragging me into this superb superb series. I am totally in love with Seth Tan ( wink wink ).
Okay Okay. Initially, my intention to do this post is to recommmend you you you to watch this drama. Well, it worths because the story line is different from any other story ( well at least for me yeah ). So, here goes the synopsis :

Nora Elena (Siti Saleha) ialah kisah seorang wanita yang telah diperkosa semasa dia berusia 15 tahun. Walaupun sukar untuk melupakan insiden hitam tersebut, kini beliau selesa menjalankan kehidupannya seperti normal dan bakal mengahwini Idham (Zul Ariffin). Namun, keadaan mula berubah setelah bertemu Seth Tan (Aaron Aziz). Idham bercadang untuk membatalkan majlis perkahwinannya dengan Nora Elena setelah menerima satu panggilan misteri yang menceritakan perihal Nora Elena yang bukan lagi seorang perawan. Seth Tan pula menawarkan dirinya menjadi Pak Sanggup menggantikan tempat Idham di dalam majlis perkahwinan tersebut kerana masa semakin suntuk. Konflik yang lebih mendebarkan berlaku setelah Nora Elena dan Seth Tan berkahwin. Nora Elena mendapat tahu Seth ini rupanya lelaki yang telah menodainya 10 tahun lalu. Malangnya Nora ketika itu sedang mengandung anak Seth. Dapatkah Nora menerima dan memaafkan Seth yang sudah insaf dengan perbuatan silamnya? Apakah motif Seth mengahwini Nora?

For those who didn`t manage to cope up with the previous episodes, you can watch them at Tonton.com. Highly recommended but sadly, next week is the last week for the show. But still, Tonton.com will be there for you! Okay then. Have a nice Friday everyone!

 P/s: Aaron & Siti Saleha are just so cliche together..awww!

Hello Hometown!

Hello readers,

Well, just mentioned on the title, yes, I`m home finally! Its been ages since Im not coming back to my hometown ( not exactly ages, just months haha ) and the city is developing much faster than expected. Not much changes lah tapi there`s flyover on the roads and new buildings are everywhere. Even the old-classic-British train is new!
So, during these few days, I`d been jalan-jalan with my cuzzy and we explore the city. Yeah, thats us. Penjalan orang bilang. Haha. I spent the first day in KK by going to AMP SQUARE. And yes, there`s already an AMP square here. Finally. This is good. Too good. Hopefully, Redbox will also be opening their branch in Sabah soon. Looking forward for that. And also JCO Donut. Please please please. ( okay mengada ).
But being in here makes me missing the moments, the friends, the laughter, the craziness and the tight classes in Shah Alam ( although di SA pun dah bosan ). But one thing is, being in hometown gives me the feeling of don`t-wanna-go-back sensation. You know, the sensation of wanting to stay at home and don`t want to go back college. Its a home-sick thingy.
Next semester will be a tough semester where the classes are tight, exhaustion, stress and everything will be back on track. I hope can perform much more better than the past. Need to maintain my Gpa as well.
Okay then. Will update soon:)




p/s: Will upload some pictures soon.

Yes, You.

When I am alone, lonely..I am thinking about my future. What am I going to be 10 years from now? or maybe 5 years then? Well, did I success? Who will I get married to? I am scared. Scared with all the things that might happened. What if the plan just don`t get into track. What if I fail? What if I never get what I want? Pretty hell, I feel damn scared.

I just want to be okay.I just want to have a happy life and gain success for my own. And still...

I want to get through this with you. After all that happened, I hope we will be more strong and happy afterwards.

Still, I love you.

The day after the exams over.

Oh yeah. I am freaking bored here now. Listening to songs and download movies as much as I can. Sorry for not updating much these past days as I was in the middle of exam. Oh by the way, my final exams for this semester are so overrrr! weehaa! So, during this semester, I had taken 2 subjects which are First Aids and Nutrition for Medical Science. 

Well, to compare them, I said First Aids is much more brain killer than nutrition.YES. Basically, First Aids is about how to treat the casualty when in emergency situations. You know, when you are in the middle of nowhere and accidents happened suddenly in front of your eyes , then these are the things you should do. I am not telling you that I am an expert in giving first aid but I can do them. I am a first aider (proud proud) haha. Well, I enjoy learning this things actually. And we are not just focusing on accidents but also emergency situations such as fire, shock, drowning, insect`s bites, etc etc ). Well don`t get shocked, I can do the child birth procedures too! ( in case no one there and I am the one who responsible to help the woman - hopely never ). It is just sometimes I am lazy enough to attend the classes ( okay please boo me ).

As for the nutrition, basically it is all about the daily nutrients requirements of the body. Just that the recommendations are different for each level of ages. Such as in infancy, childhood, adolescent and etc etc. They have different food pyramids. So, when you think the food pyramid is appropriate for all of us, it is a no because we differ. Oh God, by writing this I feel like I am kind of nutritionist or something. haha. I do love the subjects . Plus, the lecturers are nice. You know, nice means unFIERCE ( is that the term?haha ). So, bubbye them and welcome my next long sem`s subjects. Here there are:

Pathophysiology of Reproductive System

Pathophysiology of Respiratory System

Pathophysiology of bla bla bla...

Pathophysiology of bla bla bla...

bla bla bla......of Biochemistry..

Okay okay, I forgot the names! Silly me.

Oh God, I know this coming semester is hard. With all those pathophysiology subjects, I am hoping to score them. Please Please Please be good to me okay?

Enough with that, I am now here in my bedroom with nobody. Gosh. Pity me right? But I`ll be back in Sabah this coming June. Can`t wait to meet my family. Miss them so much! I am looking forward to plan things when I`m back. Hopefully, things go smooth than expected. I know most students out there are having their holidays time, so hope this holidays can be the bestest of all! 

Happy Holidays peeps!yeehaa!

My Plan.

You have your plan, so do I.

1. After graduated from my studies, of course first thing first will be working. Yeah. Working Working Working!  Well then, of course by working, we will be paid off. So, again first thing first, I will give some of my first salary to my parents. And not only the first month, but continuosly after that. InsyaAllah. It worths, you know it. You got your blessing from God and share it to those who raise you. You`re more blessed!

2. Second thing is, I want to buy a car of my own. In case you want to know, I am one of the kind that want the best out of the best. And I don`t think its inappropriate to spend money on good car, especially this one:

HAHA. I want it!

3. If possible, I want to buy a house. A condominium would be nice but better if I have my own private house. You know, that one you build by your own. Buy a land and design your own house. Still, more possible if I get my own condominium ( single girl. lol. ).

4. I want to get married. This one is every single girl`s dream.

5. I want to sent my parents to do their Haji. Well, this is my must do wish. InsyaAllah.

6. I want to travel to new places. OVERSEAS, please.

This is my short to-do list. Will update soon.

Married?

So, I have a boyfriend and we had been together for 2 years plus. Its quite long this time for me as the previous previous relationship did not survived for this length of period. So, to make things short, recently, I went to his hometown to spent few days there. Well, this Mr. Boyfie didn`t managed to go back home very often, so, this time I followed him back. As usual, his family was very very welcoming and they are very very good to me. His mother was super kind and the other family members were fun and treat me like their own family. Spending my time there makes me think about my family. Oh God, how I miss them so much! Sometimes, I feel that envious feeling inside me. How lucky he is to have his family all the time. He should be very grateful for that. But still, lucky me to have them in my life. 

So, one day, I had been in a car together with his mother and sister, on our way to the shops to buy some stuff and surprisingly, his mother asked me about the `hantaran` ( which I don`t know the pronoucation in English, sorry! ). Okay Okay. His parents were typical Malay ones and they really like early marriage. Well, speaking about hantaran, all of us know it is about marriage. And from one topic to another, YES, it is all about marriage. How about the hantaran, Leena? Is it expensive? The culture? The marriage and engagement?

Well surely, never ever in my life, these things happened. Unexpectedly, his mother was quite open to talk about this as if we were getting married next week. Yeah, I realised that, by now, we should then think about this stuff but for me, it is still a long journey. I haven`t completed my studies and to count that , I have approximately 4 years before I have my internship. And I am 21. 

His mother was like, `Takpe, tunang nanti biar mak ngan abah je pegi sana, nanti cakap dalam talipon je lah`.

and me? I am out of response.haha.

It is not about I don`t want to get marry, but it is still early for me. I know the tradition of his family and I do respect that but wait until I am graduated and complete my studies. I know he will wait for me. (winkwink)

So, the conclusion is, I want to have a better life before proceeding to the next level and for sure, I need to complete my degree first before getting involved in any of this. You know, we should think wisely and prepare ourself for better future. There are many possibilities that we don`t expect to happened kan? 

p/s: I just want you to be there everytime I need you.

Love,

Leena.

My best girlfriends.

I know for quite some time we didn`t manage to meet up and spent time like the old time. Just want to let you know that I always want to do so, I miss all those crazy and fun moments together but as usual self comitments, distance and many many stuffs do us apart. Thanks for being an amazing, awesome, understanding, superb, gorgeous, sexy, fun, crazyyy friend to me. Without all of you, I am not what I am today. You had great influence on me!

They are the queen of gossips. The one whom I feel comfortable to talk too. Funny and adorable!

My crime partner. She`s the one that always makes me laugh. Gossiping is not complete without her. Fun and craziest among all.

OMG, how I miss you!

I like her because she`s tough. Crazy too and cute!

I love her voice! Missing the moments where we always staying up together late at night onlining. Do you remember that?

This is my best friend, Khal.
We were together since in primary two but then studies do us apart after SPM.

She is an understanding and loyal friend. Always there when I need her. Thanks darl:)

When comes to laugh, she is the loudest one! 

Fun, funny and happy go lucky person. Very rare to see her sad.

This is my high school friend. A sporty, crazy

and the one I feel comfortable with.

Maryam, hope you get well soon. Haven`t heard about her since she moved. I miss your singing!

Khal, Jiji, Mashiee, Eifa, Kaka, Qila, Maryam and Faiez.

Take good care of yourself.

Love and Hugs, Leena.

p/s: Saya curi photo-photo kalian dari fb. Halalkan taw!

You are my everlasting love, mother.

For all the happiness that you give me whenever I`m sad..

For all the strength when I am down..

For all the sacrifices to raise me up..

For all the pain I owe you..

For all the challenges in your life..

THANK YOU, MOM..

I promise for a better life.

I promise to take good care of you.

I promise I love you forever.

Happy Mother`s Day.

Two sides of me.

I have two different sides of myself. No no not that reproductive site. I am naturally made as a woman okay. Hundred percent original. What I try to mention here is about my personalities. I`m trying to be good to everyone but I can`t satisfy every expectations. This does not means that I`m doing bad to people. No no not at all. I mix with plenty of people around me. There are good ones ( which means very very good ones ), there are bad ones ( too terrible ) and there are also average ones ( which means just nice lah! haha PROUDLY, I am one of this haha ). To be honestly, I don`t want to be too good to people. For me, it is enough if my personal life stay still without any interference. Indeed. I don`t like people to buzz around interfere about my personal life. Neither do others, right? I don`t want to be too good to myself too. What I`m trying to say here is that I don`t want to be a boring person. You know. Be too good and kind-hearted girl ( Do I ? ) Stay still at home, studying and reading books and all that. Be an obedient and honest girl is just not me ( I think that is my OLD me! haha ). So, one of my side is this kind of personalities which appear ONLY if I surrounded by these good people. 
So, if you`re the bad one let the good one play their roles. 

 Most people say, dulu - dulu ada lah orang baik-baik nie sekarang da pupus dah. Totally agree with that but luckily I still have those kind of friends who are very very good to me until now and hopely after this. Back to subject, my other side of personalities is the bad one. HAHA. Not that bad lah. It is just fun. Different people different perspectives, is it?

If the person smokes, either a man or woman, are they categorised as a bad person? If the person lets say go for clubbing or becoming a club singer, is he/she a bad person? During my teenagers years,I surely will label these person as bad ones but growing in multiple conditions in my adult years,  teaching me a lot more than just depends on classes. My bad side is the one that enjoying life. When I appear to be surrounded by my crazy friends, this will be activated. HAHA. We just not going so far. Cukuplah sekadar hiburan semata-mata. We are not doing bad things. We just sometimes want to have space in our life. You know, enjoying the time of your life is not bad cuma berpada-pada orang cakap. They are still good people, they are still good friends only with a slightly not-that-nice attitude.

So, my conclusion here is not all the bad ones are bad and not all the good ones are good. Sometimes, the bad one is far more better than the good ones because they seems good physically but full of hatred in their hearts. People that usually direct in their words are much much better than people who looks pretty much damn perfect in their words because surely we know the direct one reflects all the words inside their hearts but the indirect ones tend to keep it until it grows to become hatred. So, do I sound hypocrite?

p/s: Saya taw awak kasar tapi hati awak baik. Cuma kadang-kadang tu awak dongeng sikit sebab tak nampak saya depan mata awak. Saya cuma harap kita akan jadi lebih baik daripada sekarang. Amin.

Oh my prince charming!

I love him!haha. Ok peeps, this is only a joke. Yes, I admire him. I just don`t know why but maybe because he reassembles him a lot. Yes. Ok no for you but YES for me.HEHE. But then, he is already someone`s someone okay. Congrats for the engagement! I seriously want to meet him face to face. If only you know, I am your number one fan! (winkwink)

p/s: Such a sweet couple. Zahiril Adzim + Sheera

I told you Im sensitive so, the song will keep changing due to my mood. HAHA. So so sorry!


p/s: Please turn it off if you don`t like the song.

Boring semester:(

As stated above, this short semester is indeed BORING. Maybe its because of less classes which leads to less activities and MORE MORE free time. This is the reality. Students who have lack of time to get enough rest will continuosly complaining about bundles of assigments, lack of sleeping, lack of that lack of thisss..but then, when it comes to my situation. I am bored to death. Where are all the entertainments? When I need them, they aren`t there..but when I don`t, they are killing you with all the imaginations. God damn it.

From the first week of my short semester up to this day..all I do during my 4 days OFF PER WEEK was sitting in front of my lappy with a dumb face searching for anything. You hear that? ANYTHING. Well, obviously, that shows BOREDOM surrounds me. I may die due to boredness.HAHA.

Okay Okay then. I drop by here just to say hello and and and and..

Do lah something that benefits u, okay peeps? Till then. Babai.

p/s: If only money falls from the sky. I promise to take good care of them. BHAHAHA.

This is my first post already. Jyeahhh!

Oh! After some time of commitment and handling some of life`s stuff, FINALLY, I manage to open a new blog  which means my old blog is officially OVER. Yes, this one is the new baby because the old blog is messed up with all crap promotions and annoying people who do give their urls so that I can buy their stuff. Hello dude, I am not into blogging because of your ads. Sorry ya!

Okay okay let`s see. Its been ages since I stop blogging! Pheww..Well thanks to my dear friend for giving the courage to start blogging again and this time, YES this time I would like to be serious in my writings. My previous blog contains a lot of.. ahh, how can I say ...Let`s say it is kind of prematured stories.Yes, it is. When I look back on my previous previous entries,Oh yes, its kind of childish. This time I would like to be a little serious ,,urghh,,no no. A little matured would be nice.

So, since this is my first post, I then would like to officially ESTABLISH :

'' Leena Punya Blog "

Well Done, Leena!

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p/s: If you want to be happy, stay positive. God`s will.