Married?

So, I have a boyfriend and we had been together for 2 years plus. Its quite long this time for me as the previous previous relationship did not survived for this length of period. So, to make things short, recently, I went to his hometown to spent few days there. Well, this Mr. Boyfie didn`t managed to go back home very often, so, this time I followed him back. As usual, his family was very very welcoming and they are very very good to me. His mother was super kind and the other family members were fun and treat me like their own family. Spending my time there makes me think about my family. Oh God, how I miss them so much! Sometimes, I feel that envious feeling inside me. How lucky he is to have his family all the time. He should be very grateful for that. But still, lucky me to have them in my life. 

So, one day, I had been in a car together with his mother and sister, on our way to the shops to buy some stuff and surprisingly, his mother asked me about the `hantaran` ( which I don`t know the pronoucation in English, sorry! ). Okay Okay. His parents were typical Malay ones and they really like early marriage. Well, speaking about hantaran, all of us know it is about marriage. And from one topic to another, YES, it is all about marriage. How about the hantaran, Leena? Is it expensive? The culture? The marriage and engagement?

Well surely, never ever in my life, these things happened. Unexpectedly, his mother was quite open to talk about this as if we were getting married next week. Yeah, I realised that, by now, we should then think about this stuff but for me, it is still a long journey. I haven`t completed my studies and to count that , I have approximately 4 years before I have my internship. And I am 21. 

His mother was like, `Takpe, tunang nanti biar mak ngan abah je pegi sana, nanti cakap dalam talipon je lah`.

and me? I am out of response.haha.

It is not about I don`t want to get marry, but it is still early for me. I know the tradition of his family and I do respect that but wait until I am graduated and complete my studies. I know he will wait for me. (winkwink)

So, the conclusion is, I want to have a better life before proceeding to the next level and for sure, I need to complete my degree first before getting involved in any of this. You know, we should think wisely and prepare ourself for better future. There are many possibilities that we don`t expect to happened kan? 

p/s: I just want you to be there everytime I need you.

Love,

Leena.